Haven't been updating my blog for quite awhile... Years dwn d road n it was so hellish.. D path tat I hav 2 go thru.. Who sud i blame... Myself or him? It a harsh lesson 4 mi 2 learned.. No matter wat I do, I still hav 2 face it... Hw long wud it b? Everythin tat i work hard 4 juz fall off in a min.. N nw im bk 2 wer i started... Was i prepared? No im nt bt i noe I still hav 2 go thru it 4 d stupid mistakes Ive done... I hate him nt 4 wat he myk mi into bt 4 still blaming mi 4 wateva thin... 4 Ive choose sum1 who nt grown up aft wat eu hav gone thru... Hw cud I ever luv n trusted eu... Thin hav been gg on 4 3 mths n i still here freely... Sud i b enjoyin every moment left? Cn't hold on animore.. Nt tinkin bout d darkness of my lyf.. I juz wanna let it settle asap... D longer it is d more im feeling unprepare.. It hard 4 mi 2 let go of d pples tat hv been gving mi support.. Im so confused.. Mr A comes wen I was gving up on everythin.. He was juz a fwen w no feeling at all.. It was 3 yrs bk..Wen he confessed, I was shocked.. Sud I gv him a chance 2 prove tat he hav changed..? Will I fall again lyk hw I hav gv a chance 2 'Him'... Ooh..Y muz tiz hapen wen im supposed 2 b gg off... I dun wanna any1 1 2 wait 4 mi as I still wanna pick up on thin tat I hav left... Bt Mr A was so convincing...Y muz tiz hapen...
2:44 PM * SugarBabe
What is it lyk wen sum1 hav high hope for eu,
We sud b glad, hapi coz tey luk upon eu,
That what I tink too...
Bt sumtyme their expectation is juz too much,
Which myk us lose our way once again...
Seein our effort fall into pieces,
Is sumthin which we cn't imagine,
We been pushin so hard tryin to b d best,
Bt in d end it doesn't even matter...
I wish I cud juz run away,
B somewer wer no 1 noe mi,
Jz 2 b alone...
Sumwer wer pples dun xpect so much fr mi..
3:22 PM * SugarBabe
"7 years hav pass,
Many thin tat i've gone thru,
Bt i still can't forget eu,
D 1 tat hav oweaz been in my heart..
Sumtyme i juz feel ur presence here with mi,
D luvz n care tat eu hav given mi,
N wen im down,
Tinkin of eu myk mi hapi again...
Every moment tat we had is still fresh in my mind,
Those bad n gud memories tat we had,
Ur patience 2ward mi was sumthin tat i cud nvr 4gt,
Even if ter wer another 1 bt tey cn't myk eu gt out of my mind...
Livin my lyf wit ur shadow,
It juz so insane,
Thou I noe it juz impossible between us,
Bt i juz cudn't accpt the fact tat eu r no more in tiz world...
Im sowie tat I broke d promise I made b4 eu go,
Tat i muz move on wit lyf,
Find a new luv n start all again,
Bt i juz cn't do it...
Eu hav oweaz b in my hart forever,
N no one is as gud as eu r 2 mi,
If only tyme doesn't move,
We will still b 2geta n eu wud nvr leave mi here alone..."
May eu rest in peace Di...
12:55 PM * SugarBabe
"As much as I tried,
I noe im not getting aniwer,
Doesn't matter hw sincere or truthful I am,
Im still at d same path...
Time cudn't prove anithin,
Even if ter's a few moment left for mi,
Our luvz will still b lyk tiz,
Coz eu urself hv myk d choice....
I laugh, i dance n joke ,
Lyk anyone else,
As hapi as I luk, B
Bt only God knew watz lying behind those smile...
Sadness fills my hart,
Wen each tyme eu accuse mi so many thin,
Wen eu kip findin fault,
N xpecially wen eu push mi away...
Eu noe hw hurt it is,
Wen eu wish 2 hold em tightly,
Bt all tey wud do is,
2 turn away fr eu...
Some thin eu can nvr choose,
Even if hw hard eu try,
D more eu fight,
D more eu gonna lose..
Wat eu did is more ten enuff 2 myk mi feel hurt,
I wish I cud cried out loud tat eu r mine only,
Bt i noe it all useless,
Which till nw eu dun wan 2 believe it....
Revenge myk us do thin w/o tinkin,
Tiz tyme im nt gg 2 lose 2 my anger,
If hurtin mi is d wae eu show ur luv,
Wit a smile I accpt it...
My hart n mine has been conquer,
By ur luv which is still unclear,
As long as eu r hapi,
I will face d fate tat was given 2 mi...."
11:38 AM * SugarBabe
Haven been updatin quite awhile. Have been gg up & down to those places. Im so tired of it.. Coz of it i miz gg out wit my bestie. Haish!! Y did it all hav to hapen.."Sum thing eu cn nvr choose even if eu try." Wit him im hapi bt he jz cn't let sum of d thin go..
I myself isn't sure bout tiz thin im gg thru..I jz had a bad feeling bout tiz. Will i myk it or nt.. Mayb I sud jz let go of everythin tat i hold on nw..I sudn't b selfish coz of luv..I noe i cud nvr give all that person cud gv..Arghh!!
Sumtyme i do tink of Mr Sweet.Bt he's no more in my lyf animore.Juz missin him as sum1 i cud reali tork to..Wat d reason 4 mi 2 live on wen i kip losing everythin i hav..D more i fight 4 it more i lose it..D more i stand up 4 my right & d more im gg down..It painful 2 go on ..Y cn't sum1 jz understand it...
10:21 AM * SugarBabe
I cudn't imagine tat i hav 2 face all tiz..The pain so bad.I juz dun lyk wen all tat thin poke to my body..I reali juz cudn't take..Bt wen i luk in hiz eyes i jz pretend im ok.He was oweaz ter 4 mi those few dae..Gttin 2 noe d result is even more painful..Do i have to face it again..Im reali scare, i juz dun wanna go thru tiz again. Bt seein all those beside mi supportin mi in many wae, i noe i jz hav 2 b strong..Xpecially those luk in hiz eyes..
Plz gv mi d strenght 2 face all tiz again..I cn't let all of em down.He hav done alot 2 myk everythin seem perfect for mi..Which i tink money cnt buy tat..Ter nthin i cud ever repay bk 2 fulfill hiz wish ten to face tiz thin again.If only i knew tiz gonna hapen,i wud jz walk away fr him so tat he cud nvr feel tiz hardship wit mi..Bt im too is greatful, coz after all tiz dreadful journey tat i've been thru all tiz yr, I finally found sum1 who reali2 luvre mi xpecially durin tiz period of tyme...
10:59 AM * SugarBabe
Hasn't been updatin tiz few dae...Been bz lately wit all my wrk..It jz seen nvr end. Mayb sud my bozz 4 new comp..hehex...N Mr Care has been ard mi supportin mi in everythin tat i do includin aimin 4 my dreamz...Help mi alotz n hiz care toward mi was so undefine..Been pamperin mi wateva tat i wan..Last fri we had our company event at Fairy Point chalet..I was do bz tat i cudn't take d pix of d sourroundin..Haish! Wat a waste sae...Bt anw it was a success..Im glad we hav pull thru tiz..Many more 2 go guyz...!!
Jz as i plan out hw my lyfe gonna b, sumthin jz turn up nt rite..Hw i wish i didn't noe bout it..Sumtyme thin r bez nt 2 b noe..Tey told mi i hav 2 b strong, i'll we get thru it..Easy as it sae,im cryin out loud in my hart..Y does it hav 2 b mi...Who gonna help mi go thru all tiz..Aftall im still a gurl..2 go for it is sumthin i tink i cudn't afford n if i dun wat my lyfe gonna b..I truly understan nw hw my 'beautiful sis' feel..She nt stubborn,she wanna let every1 feel happy n secure..It reali hurt 2 leave all those who luvz us bt sumtyme it all fated..Lyk wat my bro sae, 'maybe wat Allah wan 4 eu is not in thiz world but in another place.wat we cn't get here, we will get it ter...If tat wat he fated ten eu will hav 2 accpt it..'
Wateva it is i noe i still hav a long journey 2 go..N i will fulfill everythin tat i hav left behind..If i fail halfwae, at least i noe i hav try my very best n tiz all tat i cud ever do..N i wish i cud c d changes in him..Tat d biggest wish..If i do, i noe i will nvr hav any regret...
8:04 AM * SugarBabe
Ydae i went shoppin my bro..1st we ate at Swensen's at Bugis...Ten we went to town to mit Arm & Aidah..Chillin at Mc Cafe..I reali had fun...He bought for mi dress for my company party on fri...Bought a sweater and levi pouch..i saw a tiz Levi's pant and watch...Wah!! Gonna grab it one of dae...Thnx lil bro...
Met him tat dae..I noe he still luv mi bt everytyme i c hiz face d pain keep cumin bk...Hw many tyme do i nid 2 gv a chance...Told eu i reali wanna 4gt everythin...Haish...
I tink im cancelling d trip to Tioman..Don't feel lyk gg 4 a holidae yet..Nid 2 save up abitz for my dreamz...Mr Sweet sae he hav been very bz doin ot so much..Haish...Reali miz him..sum1 tat i trust n feel comfortable wit...hmm..he told mi he wanna gt rich..can $ myk sum1 hapi..?? I juz tink tat $ can buy a person heart..wateva it is im juz wishin him gud luck toward hiz happiness..
12:08 AM * SugarBabe
Loving eu, is all in the past...
Missing eu, I still do....
Hating eu, is forever...
Y eu hurt mi still unanswer...
Beautiful moments is 2 b treasure,
Bad memories can nvr b forgotten,
Has tyme flies, hatred may gone,
But the scar will oweaz b ter....
I went to the beach 2dae wit my colleague...Had fun and ten we went mkn at M.P... Been very bz lately n my video is still not finish...Deadline by sun..OMG...Guezz it gonna b a very bz dae 2molo.As sat i dun reali hav d tyme to finish up the thing...
As i was lookin at the beach, i told myself,mayb it's tyme 4 mi 2 gt back wat i've oweaz wanted in lyf...Wat my dreamz b4 i start tinkin bout havin another..I noe eu all hav help mi alotz bt my heart is totally close 4 anibody rite nw...Coz of it, my wrk slacken up...So 4 nw i juz wanna go 4 my dreamz n my career...N yes it true im comfortable wit Mr Sweer bt it seem we r startin 2 drifted apart...Dun oe y, bt gurlz, he's no more ten a fwen..Not d tyme yet...
N 2 Ting, i won d bet...yeah!!! Nw eu sud prepared to fill my stomach up wit delicious food...hehe
11:01 PM * SugarBabe
Name: Norriati
Bdae: 18th July 1983
A.k.A: Adeq, Iki, Yatie
Job: Webdesigner cum Videographer / Event Executive
Companies: FYi Media Production / FYi Event Solutions...
Email Add: sugar_chaos@hotmail.com
[[ My AdoRe ]]
Blue n White...
Chocolates...
Hanging out wif my fwen n luv 1
Shopping
Travelling
[[ My Detests ]]
Bitches
Sluts
Copycats
Org yg suka bbual tapi tk uat
Org yg suka bbual 'world'
Backstabber
Liars
Sweet-talkers
[[ Music's Playing ]]
Artist: Ramzi ft. Ash King
Song: Your Love Is Blind
[[ My Lyricz ]]
I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wana see you out that door... cuz girl you know your worth much more
So baby tell me why you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door
Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind
Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door
[[ My History ]]
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